am i expecting too much from myself?
but, if i don't, how am i gonna be good?
how am i gonna improve?
it's just so horrible.
got nightmares seeing sickle foot...
it's still very fresh in my mind.
i don't mind if it's torturing but i just want it to look really good.
i want it to be strong.
which is not what i'm getting!
yea..and things is getting worst with the new shoe. urrghhh..
oh well, probably the fact is that i need more time...
but, this is some how difficult for me to swollow...
when will the time come when i can see myself doing beautiful and strong pointe work?
i guess it's just one word.