am i doing the right thing?

often, i wonder...


whether what i'm doing is right or wrong.



am i like what people say "syok sendiri"?




or am i really heading to the right direction and really pursuing the dream of my life?




why do i always have to feel or even think about all these?




life is really not a bed of roses.





but, seriously, i need a break. from all these stuff.





some people around me keep telling me to stop all this.




but, don't they get it? this is what i want in my life. my dream. my passion.




the air i breathe.





it was difficult when i first started pursuing my dream but it is even more difficult to give up on it.




looks like nobody understands how much all these mean to me.





so, what's the point of me griefing over all these stupid stuff?




i should just stay focus on tomorrow.





i might not be the best. but, i am enjoying every second of it. these are the things that i'll never leave behind.




and who knows what will happen tomorrow?




and btw, nothing is impossible.




i believed in that from the first day i started pursuing the dream of my life.






and i'm still holding on to that. forever.

ungrateful people.

sometimes, people are just ungrateful with the things they have.

things that some people are dying to have.

probably they don't even realize it!

they take things for granted.

they are not appreciative with what they have.

whereas for those who doesn't have it, are thinking days and nights for ways to get that.

cracking their brains...

dreaming about it every night...

admiring pictures and others who have it.

why? why? why?

why don't they realize how important it is? how lucky they are?

how beautiful that is....

this is so not fair.

why?!

i'm not jealous but just pissed with people who take things for granted.

they are talented & good.

but, they are not appreciating it.

at least be appreciative with what you have & know how lucky you are.

if only i was like them...

can i do it?

am i expecting too much from myself?

but, if i don't, how am i gonna be good?

how am i gonna improve?

sigh.

it's just so horrible.

got nightmares seeing sickle foot...

it's still very fresh in my mind.

i don't mind if it's torturing but i just want it to look really good.

i want it to be strong.

which is not what i'm getting!

extremely pissed!

yea..and things is getting worst with the new shoe. urrghhh..

sigh.

oh well, probably the fact is that i need more time...

but, this is some how difficult for me to swollow...

when will the time come when i can see myself doing beautiful and strong pointe work?

when????!!!

sigh.

i guess it's just one word.

practice.

=(