can i do it?

am i expecting too much from myself?

but, if i don't, how am i gonna be good?

how am i gonna improve?

sigh.

it's just so horrible.

got nightmares seeing sickle foot...

it's still very fresh in my mind.

i don't mind if it's torturing but i just want it to look really good.

i want it to be strong.

which is not what i'm getting!

extremely pissed!

yea..and things is getting worst with the new shoe. urrghhh..

sigh.

oh well, probably the fact is that i need more time...

but, this is some how difficult for me to swollow...

when will the time come when i can see myself doing beautiful and strong pointe work?

when????!!!

sigh.

i guess it's just one word.

practice.

=(

great, great week!

this week has been awesome!

i've finally got David Archuleta's Christmas From the Heart album in my hands!

* it's not out in the stores yet btw!*

it's reallly gooood! and i'm so T-totally in Christmas mood already!

and this is the album!

awwww...it looks good but, i tell you, the songs sounds even better!! <3

reallly enjoyed his songs! thumbs up! =)

not only did i get DA's album but also i got myself the 2nd issue of Just Dance! magazine, which i have been waiting for so so long...

and i looooooveeeee this issue's very very muchh!

just by looking at the cover...i am already blown away!

and that is Elynn Chew. She's so beautiful...

plus there are a lot more pictures of her inside! yippie~

i was really inspired by the article about her.

whoaa!

lovin' that magazine! <3

so, to all dancers or whoever it may be, go grab yourself a copy NOW!

Genee International Ballet Competition 2009

Claudia Dean, gold medalist from Australia

Takeaki Miura, bronze medalist from Japan

Nicola Wills-Jones, silver medalist from Australia

The only Singaporean who made it to the finals, Min Yi Kwok





Henrietta Ellice-Flint, finalist from Australia

These are just some of the winners and finalist.

Most of the finalist are from Australia! But, I'm really proud that Min Yi Kwok made it to the finals!

and

Claudia Dean, who won the gold medal, really deserved this.

Look at the picture!

only one word.

perfection.

once again, congrats Claudia!

and again, i missed it. sigh.

i bet next year's competition will be further than Singapore.

which means i won't be able to make it to that place.

sigh.

but, nevermind. i guess i'll just wait for the videos.

i <3>

the contestants are all quite young. around 15 to 19 of age.

they are really talented!

and i'm sure it is an experience that they will never ever forget in their life!

and also it is a good platform to start off their career as professional dancers.

many notable ballerinas & ballet dancers had the genee experince when they were younger.

so, yea...these contestants will surely go far! =)

i just need them!

i want those!

i need those!

desperately.

great arches & beautiful insteps.

sigh.

someone

help!

am not doing well in those shoes.

mobility

that's the word.

&

that's what i want!

how am i gonna go for exam next yr?!

God knows...

omg. i can't imagine that anymore.

sadness.

inspiring

Polina Semionova

The Shoes

The Shoes

Their beautiful satin face was torn,

Dirtied and tattered from being worn.

‘Neath music and lights, they made her fly;

The flowers and trophies made her cry.

On strange stages black,

she carefully tread

Until at last, the shoes set to bed.

Pink satin shoes in which she danced

Interred by the years in which they romanced.

remember the dance

REMEMBER THE DANCE

Remember the feeling,

of lights on your face.

Remember the feeling,

of poise and grace.

So different from at home.

Remember the feeling,

of flying in place.

Remember the feeling,

of time and space.

That is not your own.

Remember the girls lined up,

from left to right.

Remember walking out of the studio,

out into the night.

But most of all, remember the girls who are becoming teachers.

Just. Like. You.

you are you.

never compare because you are special in your own way.

do not be discouraged with people's words.

stay strong because your journey has just begun.

wyeeeee~

okay.

as i have said before this, i'll take a picture of my very first pointe shoes...

*drums roll*

lol...

look at 'em..=)

this was few weeks ago when my mom ( i don't know how to sew..lol..) have not sewn my shoe

ribbons on...

sigh.

they look so beautiful and clean.

now, it's a disaster already...

no picture for that, of course.

LOL..

another thing is....

my exam result is out!

and

the result is

*drum rolls*

this is the picture i edited myself..lol..

now this is the original one...=)

my result form...

hmm...i know it's only grade 5

and distinction for grade 5 is like nothing to those pro...

but, i've only begun not long ago...

so, am happy with my progession...

and

now,

interfound.

gosh.

suffering man...=S

sigh.

must persevere! =)

hmm...guess that's all for now.

not suppose to be using the comp...=S

great day again?

hahaha...

now every Saturday is a great day!

as usual...

today's classes was "interesting"...

you know why?

cos one of the kids cried in class!!

got panic attack man!

okay...

she cried cos she fell...and you know, when kids fall, all they do is CRY!

LOL...

went towards her and comfort her...ask her not to cry...=)

but still cry

and

cry

and

cry

lol...

after quite sometime, she finally stopped...yay! =S

another one is this kid...she look kinda sad...

so, i asked her why?

she said " i love my mummy..."

super random...lol...

but, awww...so sweet...ain't she cute?

she's also the one who merajuk and wants her mommy, last week...

these kids are just amazing! they make me feel happy...

and they really made my day! =D

oh gosh! i think i love kids now! eheemmm...hahaha...

can't believe i hated kids last time...

they are too cute to be hated! =P

another kid who wasn't from that class...came to me..as she was entering the dance studio..

and said hi to me...

i was surprise...

cos i'm not assisting my teacher for that class..

cos i gotta go for my own class that time...

i walked out...and she came out to say bye to me...

my heart melted...=S

so, that's the reason why i always look forward for Saturdays...

all the frustrations and disappointments i had on weekdays...

these kids really cheers me up!

i.hearts.them

another thing is i'm gonna have to conduct a Grade 1 class

on the 18th ON MY OWN!

cos my teacher couldn't make it on that day...

this is scary man!

FIRST time conducting a class!

hopefully things will go well on that day..

even though it's just Grade 1, but still, am still nervous ya know!

oh yeah! the picture of my pointe shoes! still haven't taken..lol..

will post another time! =)

and

am starting using pointe shoes tmr! =D

excited.scared-pain! =S

lol...

Great day! =D

Song of the day: The Climb ft. Ahmir

this song is soooo gooood...better than the original version! <3333>

I've got them in my hands!

yesterday was a great day!

cause....

i finally got my very own pointe shoes! =D

they are so lovely...kept "playing" with it...tried them dunno how many times ady...

will post a pic of it when i manage to take a nice one...=)

i know it sounds a bit crazy..but..i bring the shoes around...everywhere i go in the house ( except for some places of course) lol...

BEAUTIFUL!

okay...enough of pointe shoes...

yesterday, as usual..i had 3 classes of assisting..

one of the classes is baby ballet!

oh my gosh! they are sooo cuteee! never seen kids so cute before! =)

and the stuff my teacher taught them was FUN!

seeing them running around and laughing...

then..one kid sat at one corner and said " I want my mummy..."

awww...aren't they cute? ^^

in the Grade1 class...one kid was like..

" Teacher, can i go toilet? " lol

" Teacher, can i drink water?

CUTENESS!

but, i think i'm a sucky teacher...gosh!

need to learn how to interact with kids more! =S

at the end of the baby ballet class, we sang the Barney song!

" I love you...you love me...we are happy family...with a great big hug..and a kiss from me to you..won't you say you love me too..."

so cuteeee~

how i wish i had stuff like these when i was younger..=(

LOL...

the little kids..think around 4-5 yrs old..

they are so happy! keep smiling at everyone...

am happy seeing them enjoying themself!

i love baby ballet class! wyee~

gosh! i really need to buck up on my assisting skills man! or else, i'm afraid my teacher would sack me! LOL..hahaa...

What a memorable day...

today

was indeed a memorable day for me...

as i have said in the previous post...

i'll be trying pointe shoes after the holidays...

and..

yeap! i tried them today!! o.m.g

they are so lovely =)

(can't take my eyes of them...)

it is just a sample though...

but, my teacher said maybe we'll be getting 'em next week if there is stock...

hopefully, we'll get them next week~

okay...not just that...

today is the first day i assist my teacher...

it was really cool and FUN~

went for 2 classes...

think it is Grade 3 and the other one is Grade 1

my favourite is Grade 1 class...the kids are sooo adorable! cuteeeee~

enjoyed myself a lot! but, it is not an easy task though..

maybe i'll just need more time for training and stuff...

but, think it is quite a good start...first day ma...=P

and the BEST part is....

i'm "paid" for this!

it is not in $$$ form but in points form...

i can use the points i collected to buy any dance accesories,shoes,leotards, basically, ANYTHING!

even if i purchase from internet, i just have to show the receipt and the school will pay me back!

woohoo! =D

ANYTHING except for fees...LOL...

i really had a great day today! am always looking forward for the weekends now!! =D

i'm so bless...

all glory to the One who created me! =P