can i do it?

am i expecting too much from myself?

but, if i don't, how am i gonna be good?

how am i gonna improve?

sigh.

it's just so horrible.

got nightmares seeing sickle foot...

it's still very fresh in my mind.

i don't mind if it's torturing but i just want it to look really good.

i want it to be strong.

which is not what i'm getting!

extremely pissed!

yea..and things is getting worst with the new shoe. urrghhh..

sigh.

oh well, probably the fact is that i need more time...

but, this is some how difficult for me to swollow...

when will the time come when i can see myself doing beautiful and strong pointe work?

when????!!!

sigh.

i guess it's just one word.

practice.

=(